Motherhood and OCD: It's possible.

April 30, 2021

Motherhood and OCD: It's possible.

If you are wondering whether or not having OCD makes motherhood an unrealistic dream for you, I have something to share.

The only thing I ever wanted to be when I grew up was a mom. I imagined the haircut I would have and the outfits I would wear. I planned to have 2 kids, a boy and then a girl. I imagined that I would be very busy feeding them bottles and pushing them in strollers and going to the park. With all the careful consideration I put into planning my future as a mother, I never factored in the possibility that I would struggle with my mental health while doing it. For one, I was a natural with babies and always had been. And secondly, why on earth would that happen to me??

Fast forward a bunch of years and here I am with my 2 kids, a boy and then a girl. And here I am with my mental health that always seems to be adjusting on the spectrum of mental wellness and mental illness. For the most part, it is very much worth it. I absolutely cannot imagine my life without kids. OK, that’s a lie. I DO imagine my life without kids, but in that alternate reality I am lonely, sad, and I still have this mental health condition. The big difference is that I do not have the joy and purpose I get from being a mother to my children.

When I think about that life, I know that I would choose motherhood with OCD over and over again. As hard and trying as its has been (at times) to struggle with intrusive thoughts, panic and anxiety, while simultaneously being responsible for the well-being and safety of two children, make no mistake that I believe it is WORTH IT.

Choose the life you want and don’t let OCD force unwanted limits on you. If being a parent is something you want for yourself, then go for it. There is no life without a little risk.


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